Amitriptyline update

15 Jun

Two weeks ago, my most recent doctor prescribed amitriptyline for “chronic pain” to see if it would help my condition.  I didn’t have much hope for it working, seeing as I experience irritation and burning but not anything I would describe as “painful.”  Just very, very uncomfortable.

There for awhile I started to think maybe it was working.  I still noticed the irritation but my discharge seemed to be lighter than normal for several days.  Some of the side effects of amitriptyline involve lower mucous production in some parts of the body, and I was hoping my lighter discharge may have been a result of that effect.

But, I should have known better than to get my hopes up.  Discharge was back to normal today and the irritation is still as present as ever.  Today is the official 14th day I’ve been on the medication, so I’m thinking if it was working those first two weeks I wouldn’t be noticing worse symptoms today.

*Sad face*

I still haven’t tried the lidocaine gel.  I’m still too nervous to try another topical product, since the last several I’ve been given have only made matters worse.

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Interesting

10 Jun

There are three things about my symptoms that I feel must hold some sort of key to what is going on, yet at the same time they only stump the doctors (if they get any consideration at all).

The first is that my symptoms are always worse in the morning and get better as the day progresses.  My discharge is always heavier the first half of the day and the irritation is always the worst in the mornings.

The second is that intercourse, although sometimes slightly uncomfortable because of my symptoms, actually provides relief from my symptoms (weird, I know)!  If I have sex, the following day my discharge will be next to nothing and the irritation is barely noticeable.  This is the aspect of my condition that has me most confused.

The third thing I have noticed about my symptoms is that the irritation seems to flare up quite a bit immediately after I use the restroom.  I don’t know if it’s something related to my urine, or to the tissue paper, or what, but I do know that right after using the restroom the irritation increases.

These three things have me even more puzzled as to what my problem is, because in all of my reading and my research about gynecological problems I’ve never seen mention of these characteristics.  In all of the message boards I’ve been on, I’ve never seen other women who notice the same things about their symptoms.  It has me very, very confused.

It’s all so simple when you’re a child

7 Jun

I work with children, and yesterday one of the kids in the nursery got this puzzle out.  Although I’ve seen the puzzle a thousand times, the irony of it never occurred to me until yesterday.  If only life worked the way it does in Charlie Brown’s world…

I estimate I’ve spent a few thousand over the past two years just trying to get to the root of my problem.  That comes to about 60,000 nickels.

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February 2008: And so it begins…

6 Jun

In January 2008, I began dating someone.  At the time, I had only one previous sexual partner, and regrettably I made the stupid mistake of having unprotected sex with this new boyfriend.

About a week later, I developed what I thought was a yeast infection.  I purchased Monistat 1 and self-treated the infection, which appeared to clear up within a couple of days.

A few weeks later, in the beginning of February, this “yeast infection” came back.  This time I purchased a Monistat treatment with a longer duration.  To my disappointment, the infection did not clear up–not even slightly.

I visited a nurse practitioner at my college clinic, who did a wet mount as well as tests for chlamydia and gonorrhea.  The STD tests were negative, and not much yeast was shown.  She prescribed some Diflucan and told me to use them in combination with another round of Monistat.  I was horrified when, a week later, my symptoms were still present.

I returned to the clinic, where the NP diagnosed me with cervicitis and put me on a 10-day treatment of doxycycline.  The second day in, I thought it was helping–but, after all ten days I still had my symptoms.

On my next visit to the NP, she tested me for genital herpes, which was negative.  She admitted she was stumped and gave me a bottle of Flagyl, and it (of course) did nothing for me.  Upon hearing this, the NP tested me for non-albicans yeast (once again, negative) and put me on two weeks of boric acid suppositories.  These didn’t help at all.

Finally, the doctor at the clinic visited with me.  She did a culture, which came back showing nothing problematic, and told me stress with school was to blame for my symptoms.  She advised that I wait until the end of the summer and the symptoms would likely clear up on their own.  So that’s what I did–gave up and waited.

I waited until December 2008 before pursuing a solution again.  This time I saw an NP at a gynecologist’s office.  She performed a pap smear that came back normal, and put me on a treatment involving one dose of Flagyl weekly for 12 weeks.  I did this for a month, and noticed no change in symptoms, so I quit taking the pills.

My next visit involved a test for strep B–surprise surprise, negative.  The NP insisted I try topical Metrogel, which I did to make her happy, and I was not shocked when it didn’t help a bit.

Although I had already tried boric acid, this new NP was convinced it would work–she told me to use one suppository per week for 12 weeks.  When that didn’t rid me of my symptoms, she prescribed Clindamycin.  I never found out whether or not it would work because I had a severe allergic reaction to it.

In June 2009, after reading about this supposed miracle anti-candida diet, I gave the diet my first shot.  I did it for about three weeks, while also doing an expensive herbal candida cleanse, and noticed absolutely no change in my symptoms.  In this time, I also tried the expensive probiotics, the douching with hydrogen peroxide, and a product called Aci-jel.  Still, my symptoms persisted.

In August 2009, I gave the candida diet a second shot.  I was incredibly strict about the diet and never cheated or backed down once.  After a month, when my symptoms had still not improved by even one percent, I decided it wasn’t healthy for me and I eased back into a normal diet.  I have since kept a journal of the foods I eat to record whether or not they affect my symptoms; I still have not been able to make a connection between my food intake and my symptoms flaring up.

In October 2009, I demanded to see a real gynecologist instead of a nurse practitioner.  The doctor who saw me confirmed it was not yeast- or bacteria-related, but performed a culture to be sure.  The culture showed no yeast, no bacteria, and normal vaginal flora.  My doctor scheduled a colposcopy, which was performed in November 2009.

During the colposcopy, the doctor also biopsied some tissue.  A week later, they called to say I have VIN1 (vulvar dysplasia) and I was given a 3-month treatment of Aldara cream.

A month into the Aldara, I developed a chemical burn on my vulvar tissue as a result of using the cream.  My doctor ceased treatment immediately, for that reason and also because the treatment had made no change in my symptoms.  At the time of stopping the Aldara, my doctor prescribed a corticosteroid cream and had me use it twice daily for three weeks.  When I began using the steroid cream, I also quit taking my birth control pills–I had been on them for six years and was wondering if they were contributing in any way.  Three weeks later, I had noticed no improvement with the steroid cream.  Six months later, I still have seen no improvement from quitting birth control.

My doctor’s next move was to perform laser surgery to remove the tissue affected by the VIN1.  I saw a new doctor to get a second opinion; he didn’t agree with the surgery idea, and he was under the belief I had lichen sclerosis.  He treated me with two different creams–Atopiclair and Elidel–and when both of them actually worsened my symptoms, he referred me to a dermatologist who specializes in vulvar skin conditions.

The dermatologist did an exam to see if lichen planus was possibly the culprit; she saw some evidence, but not enough, and she made a phone call to the vulvar clinic at OHSU to speak with the specialists there.  The specialists claimed it sounds like I have vulvar vestibulitis syndrome (VVS), and I have recently begun taking Amitriptyline for chronic pain and I’ve been given Lidocaine gel to use for numbing the area when it feels irritated.  I have not yet been able to try the Lidocaine, and it’s too soon to tell if the Amitriptyline is providing me with any benefit.  After nothing but failures for over two years, though, I am at the point where a positive outlook about any treatment is near impossible.

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The symptoms (and what they are NOT)

5 Jun

The most important thing to consider here is what my symptoms are, and what is not causing them.  My main symptoms are redness of the vulva, irritation and burning of the vulva and just inside the vagina, and an often heavy yellowish discharge.  Sex is still pleasurable, but afterwards I usually feel rubbed raw. 

So let me make a list of everything I have been tested and/or treated for:

-Yeast infection (tested negative, still treated with OTC Monistat, Diflucan, boric acid suppositories, and terconazole cream)
-Bacterial infection (tested negative, still treated with Flagyl–both orally and topically)
-Cervicitis (treated with doxycycline)
-Strep (tested negative)
-STDs:  chlamydia, gonorrhea, trichomoniasis, herpes (all negative)
-pH imbalance (tested, normal pH levels)
-VIN1 was found during a colposcopy/biopsy (treated with Aldara [imiquimod], which did nothing but chemically burn my skin)
-Lichen sclerosis (no test performed, treated for it with a steroid cream, Atopiclair cream, and Elidel cream)
-Vaginal cultures that have been sent off to the lab show completely normal vaginal flora and NO yeast or bacteria

In addition to all of this, I have tried the candida diet–not once, but twice–and it, along with a candida cleanse, caused no change in my symptoms; I have tried taking all kinds of expensive strains of probiotics; I have tried douching with hydrogen peroxide; absolutely nothing I’ve done has had any kind of positive effect on my condition.  I have kept journals of things I’ve ingested to make sure my symptoms aren’t provoked by something going into my body.  I’ve quit taking hormonal birth control.  I use no scented soaps, do not douche, wear cotton underwear, wash my clothes with hypoallergenic laundry detergent.  And none of the things I have listed has even put a dent in my symptoms.

Most recently, I was referred to a dermatologist who called the vulvar clinic at OHSU and discussed my records with the doctors there.  They explained to her it sounded as if I have vulvar vestibulitis, so she prescribed an antidepressant used to treat chronic pain and a Lidocaine gel to numb the affected region when needed.  I just picked these up from the pharmacy, so I have yet to determine if they will have any affect.  I am bothered, though, by the fact that none of the doctors I’ve seen have really addressed the discharge issue.  My most recent visits–probably the past ten of them–have all had doctors treating me for things that don’t even produce excess discharge, and since that’s one of my main symptoms I’m not satisfied with the fact that it’s being ignored by medical professionals.  The vulvar vestibulitis just happens to be one of those conditions that doesn’t usually produce that type of symptom, so my hopes of this newest treatment working out are pretty slim.

Bottom line is, I feel like I’ve been tested for everything and treated for everything and that is what’s so discouraging.  But I’m no medical professional, and so I’m keeping my fingers crossed that there is SOME rare condition out there that someone will eventually consider.

The War Continues

5 Jun

Let me start off by saying:  if you are a man and you are reading this, you’re going to want to close the window before you read any further.  This blog is made by a woman FOR women, and it’s going to discuss a lot of things you don’t want to read about.  Embarassing things, disgusting things, the kinds of things that require the author of the blog to give up on her dignity and embrace humiliation.  Luckily, I get to remain anonymous for all of this.

For over two years, I have had a gynecological condition that has yet to be accurately diagnosed or treated.  In this blog, I will be chronicling my journey by traveling back to day one and outlining every aspect of the hell I have been through while trying to solve my mystery condition.  While I do this, I will also keep an updated account of the new things I learn, the doctor visits I make, and the treatments I try in an attempt to return to what I consider a “normal” life. 

I’m keeping this blog for two reasons.  The first is this:  In the beginning when it was clear my problem had no easy solution, I found comfort in joining message boards where I could talk to other women who were experiencing problems similar to my own.  This has probably been more helpful than any doctor visit or any treatment I have attempted, and I want to keep a record of my experiences so that other women may read through them and realize that they really aren’t alone (as cliche as it may sound).

The second reason for creating a blog is that the only hope I have for solving my mystery is to keep track of what I do and don’t know and what I have and haven’t tried.  I want to write down EVERYTHING I know for sure and speculate about what I don’t know.  I also hope that by doing this, maybe someone–a doctor, perhaps–out there will see what I’ve written and be able to help me figure out what’s wrong with me.

So, my real unfortunate journey may have begun two years ago, but I see this a second beginning.  I am not the first to go through this and I will not be the last.  As a writer, I hope this blog turns out to be a story–a story with a beginning, a middle, and an end.  And as someone who, though discouraged, still has a lot of hope, I want this story to have a happy ending.

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